So you said yes to God?
Got your devotional down pat. You stopped smacking cheeks and have been celibate for a quite some time now. You paying your tithes, going to church and showing up to work consistently with an attitude…. of Christ. You even let your coworkers' slick comments go and replace your cuss words with a little prayer and 10-second count down. You swapped in your trap music for Kirk, and you're even practicing what you tweet. You feel like you’re doing your part. In there like swimwear! Doing the Heisman on these…and ALL. But let’s be real…in the midst of it all, do you ever have the moments of, “God, ok, where you are you? I’m doing my part…” Those moments where you feel like your life is on pause. You still feel like your old self. You still cry yourself to sleep. You still have moments where you feel like you aren't good enough. You still have moments where you feel like you can't breathe and you need a little help inhaling. The straight up, “Nah, God, I’m trying to do my own thing today.” Everything you want and everything you are pursuing seem to not be so easy. Sometimes God even tells you to hold up on the things you desire and tells you to wait and chill. Man, I know the feeling. I've had times and still have moments where I'm straight up confused, and the last thing I feel like doing with a heavy heart and gulp of tears in my throat is press into God. "Press into God? What you mean press into God? Could someone take a moment and press into ME? I'm the one hurting!" The feeling of, "God... Where the heck are You and why do I feel like You've abandoned me?" Don’t worry - you aren’t the only one tripping. David in Psalms 22 cried out the same thing, and God considered David a man after God’s own heart. Let me be real with you. Surrendering your life to God is not a game nor is it sunshine and sprinkles all of the time. I am actually still in the pruning process and currently being stripped away from the things I want. My wait is hard... but man, His grace is sufficient even in my weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power may rest in me. “ His grace is sufficient enough when I feel like giving up... His grace is sufficient when I've messed things up... His grace is sufficient when I've chosen to be raggedy and not righteous. Understand me - your greatest asset in your serveship to the Lord is your lack. Your greatest asset in your relationship with Jesus Christ is your weakness. All my life, I've been told to "suck it up." But my blog partner Lauren said something really cool... "You don't have to suck it up with Jesus. He didn't die for you to suck it up. Sucking it up implicates that YOU must carry the weight." Whew! Yo I almost forgot, man... I don't have to carry the weight. Jesus said, "Come to me all who are weary, and I will give you rest." Not come to me all who are perfect..not come to me all who have sucked it up, but all who are weary. I don't know about y'all, but I've had moments of weariness where I was tripping. But let me remind you real quick - tripping puts you in a good position to kneel. We seem to forget that resting place of salvation that God has called us to. I still sometimes cry myself to sleep. I still sometimes have bad days... like "really, God? Really?" I still have moments when I'm like, "God, I don't wanna do it Your way; I wanna do it my way." And of course, Him loving me like He does... He swoops in and wrecks my little raggedy plans and gets me and my life how He wants it real quick despite how I feel. Oh and another thing, God doesn't care about your little feelings. Yes, he cares for you, but He's concerned about what's best for you. And what's best for you is His plan and His will for your life. When you said yes to God --- your old life was crucified. You gave up your life, and now you are on the pursuit to look like the One you behold. News flash: you behold Christ. Remember the prayer you prayed a while ago asking God to use you? Well…. If you relate with this whole blog and you feel like you’re being stretched – Congratulations, shorty! God is preparing you so He’s able to use you for His Glory. Oh yeah, again, this life ain’t about you. Get used to it. Please remember that God is our hope. Our identity is found in Him. Not that job, car, shorty - but Him. You are being built up for something great. I encourage you to believe that God has your back, and He believes in you. Oh, and I believe in you, too! He won't hold any good thing from you. So in the middle of your tears and your weariness, press. There is a life filled with everything you ever wanted or needed on the other side of your obedience! I love you forreal, and so does Jesus! Xo - A
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